If You Find Me by Emily Murdoch

15793231Release Date: March 26, 2013
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Publisher: St. Martin’s Griffin
Age Group: Young Adult
Shelfability: Acquire
Pages: 256
Format: Advance Reader Copy
Source: Publisher
Interest: Story
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I had the opportunity to read If You Find Me several months before it’s release. I actually read it when the title was The Patron Saint of Beans, I still think that title is very attention grabbing, but If You Find Me fits the tone of the book really well.

The synopsis is what really hooked me, partly because the book didn’t have a cover when I discovered it and I’m a sucker for a good cover. Here was this story about a girl growing up on the edges of civilization not knowing that she was missing anything at all and then being thrown into a world she has no idea how to navigate. Not only that, but she a TEEN girl on top of that. Being a teen is confusing enough without having to essentially rewire everything in your head.

The story opens with Carey and her little sister Janessa being “discovered” by the authorities basically starving of all necessities. Carey hasn’t always lived in the secluded woods that their mother brought them to, but Janessa has. Carey then meets her biological father and discovers that their mother might not have been protecting them like the girls thought after all.

We then get to be with the girls, more so with Carey, as they adjust to their new life. Living in a house. Having a family meal. Having a family. It broke my heart how much Carey didn’t get to be a normal girl, that she had to grow up much to quickly and her emotional scars may never heal. This story made me realize all the little things that I take for granted every day.

The relationship with Ryan was a little unexpected. I wasn’t really expecting a romantic element on top of everything else, but I did very much enjoy that aspect. Might not want to read these next sentences…. it may be spoiler. Especially because of what ultimately we discover about these two. I just knew there had to be something more going on there.

It was heartbreaking yet hopeful at the same time. If you are a fan of contemporary fiction, I definitely recommend you read this one. I can’t wait to see what Murdoch comes up with next.