An Explanation and an Apology.
I owe you an explanation and an apology.
Please don’t take my silence on this issue until now as an admission to anything.
I made a mistake. I freely admit that and I am truly sorry. I am disappointed in myself and I’m embarrassed. I’m deeply saddened and distraught that I have broken your trust. While my actions were not deliberate, I don’t want to give you any excuses. In a way I feel as though it won’t matter what I say at this point. It seems that the verdict has been decided. I was accused of doing something that I am vehemently against, and intentionally or not, I know that there will be consequences.
You may be wondering why I didn’t address this issue earlier. The fact is, I thought it was taken care of privately.
After the accusations were brought to my attention I was appalled. I would never do something like that. That is NOT me. I thought that I did everything that I could do, to make the situation right.
I’ve struggled immensely with this, because this is not the type of person that I am. I felt like the fraud I was accused of being.
I didn’t want to keep it private for the reasons that you are thinking. I’m not worried about what people will think of me. I’m not saying that it doesn’t hurt, it does. I’m not immune, but that wasn’t my biggest concern. My biggest worry was the authors and publishers that I host.
I offer them something. A viewership. I offer them the chance to have their book seen. I didn’t want to deny them something that I had promised. I now fear that is the case.
I don’t expect your forgiveness. I don’t even expect you to understand. I can’t ask that you continue reading The Story Siren as a result, and I respect your decision to not do so. The only thing I ask of you is that you take this apology as a sincere one.
ETA: I am very sorry for the trouble that all of this has caused the book blogging community. This apology was written in haste and the blogging community nor my readers were not excluded. This apology was for you. I also apologize for my actions and will work harder to be a better and stronger blogger. I am sorry that I was unavailable due to work during the day and seemed unresponsive.